Tuesday, May 08, 2007

9 months, 2 days


I don't know why this feels really sad to me, but today Isaiah has officially been out in the world as long as he was in my tummy, all safe and protected. Tomorrow his life in the world will have been longer. I think I'm sad because in some way I feel like my connection with him is being rivaled with all the things there are to experience "outside." And he is very busy trying to experience as much as he can in a 24 hour period. I'm a lot more tired at the end of the day than I was just a couple of months ago.

To be honest, I'm a little worried about me. I mean, this is not that big of a deal....there are so many more milestones to come, but I'm sitting here in tears just thinking about this one. I feel like I'm mourning all the ones to come as my little boy keeps growing up. It's just coming a lot faster than I ever imagined.

It makes me think of the children's book that leaves me in a puddle of tears.

"I'll love you forever,
I'll like you for always.
As long as I'm living,
My baby you'll be."

I love you, little boy.


3 comments:

Spirit of Adoption said...

oh that book will grip you EVERY time you read it....I have a feeling it might even get us more as the seasons go by!! And it DOES go by fast, but the seasons to come really are (even though some of it is EXTREMELY HARD b/c of our sin) FUN!!! You will love that boy more and more as he grows and you learn more about him and who God has made him!!! He's such a DELIGHT!!! Love you!!!

Anonymous said...

How precious he is! When I look back over these few months that he has been in this world, I really believe Isaiah is a happier baby now that he is a little older. He seems less stressed. Don't you think so, Dana? Maybe it's because he is a little more independent and can do more. You are right to cherish every minute with him and not take them for granted. God has truly blessed me with all three of you!

Spirit of Adoption said...

I just tagged you, friend : )

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