Thursday, September 18, 2008

Quick update

We have a new computer and I haven't quite taken the time to figure out how to do pictures so that's mainly why I've been behind on posting anything. That and the fact that I have nothing intelligent to say these days :)

But as for a quick baby update, I saw Dr. Jones for the last time on Wed. The next time I will see him is next Friday morning. So weird. Everything's fine and since it's a c-section he didn't have to "check" anything. Woo Hoo! So I have no idea if there's any progression and frankly don't really care...the baby's coming out on Friday. And, for the record, I really think it's a girl.

I have been struggling to trust the Lord with all the details that I think "need" to be in place before the baby comes...and of course, our finances are almost always stressful to me. Especially as I plan to take 3 months of maternity leave from work. Still not sure how all of that is going to work out, but the Lord has been meeting me in my freak-out moments and comforting me with His word. That has been such an encouragement to my heart (that He cares for me, LOVES me and is for me), because so often I carry around my worries and burdens and never give Him the chance to meet me. I usually think that I can handle it. Seems like I would grow out of that. MAYBE having 2 kids will grow some of that out of me :)

This season has been challenging for sure and I've found myself desperate on a consistent basis for God's grace in every little moment. Isaiah is definitely a 2 year old little boy with all the issues that come with that, and I have had such little patience and energy with him. I find myself really struggling some moments with anger towards him...especially on days that a realtor calls and wants to show the house, throwing our whole day into a flurry of cleaning, shoving stuff places and trying to get out of the house. That in itself has humbled me and I'm thankful for that. I need that. I'm sure having a newborn will bring much more of that. (And, by the way, I want to point out that Isaiah has filled many, many moments with much needed humor, laughter and joy...he has quite the personality!)

It's interesting to me that so many of my friends are (for various reasons) in similar seasons of clinging to the Lord just to get through the day...minute by minute reliance. I have been really encouraged by you guys and your own struggle to trust Him for all that you need. It's so good and sweet of the Lord to place people like you in my life, running this race with me.

Here are a few passages that I'm clinging to and putting my hope in:

But now thus says the Lord,
he who created you, O Jacob,
he who formed you, O Israel:
“Fear not, for I have redeemed you;
I have called you by name, you are mine.
2 When you pass through the waters, I will be with you;
and through the rivers, they shall not overwhelm you;
when you walk through fire you shall not be burned,
and the flame shall not consume you.
3 For I am the Lord your God,
the Holy One of Israel, your Savior.

--Isaiah 43:1-3

And my God will supply every need of yours according to his riches in glory in Christ Jesus.

--Phil 4:19

For we do not have a high priest who is unable to sympathize with our weaknesses, but one who in every respect has been tempted as we are, yet without sin. 16 Let us then with confidence draw near to the throne of grace, that we may receive mercy and find grace to help in time of need.

--Heb 4:15-16

Three times I pleaded with the Lord about this, that it should leave me. 9 But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me.

--2 Cor 12:8-9


Shawnda said...

Thankful to hear how the Lord is meeting you, friend! Thanks for your encouragement the other day! ; ) Praying for you and excited to meet that baby! ; )