Thursday, July 16, 2009

One year ago today

A sweet friend just left my house, and we were talking about God providing. She's really wanting to trust the Lord with circumstances in her life right now, so we were looking up verses that deal with that.

I decided to flip through my 2008 journal (The Year of Never-Ending Financial Turmoil) and found this entry. I almost didn't catch the date....July 16, 2008.

"Lord, I know You already know my heart fully, but I am so overwhelmed right now. Here's the short list:

--selling house
--buying house
--getting enough $ for our house
--saving enough $ for next house
--should we even buy another house?
--move to another city?
--being somewhat settled in time for baby #2
--having $ to live on through the summer
--having $ for my maternity leave
--living radically
--paying off debt
--doing Total Money Makeover
--staying or leaving Crossway
--overall vision for how we want to live in order to bring You glory
--discerning Your will and calling
--feeling like my heart should be somewhere it's not

I know I'm not trusting You. I know You're in control and will take care of us, but that's all in my head -- my heart's not following...."

It is SO GOOD for me to see this! Obviously, some things on the list will always be things that are a work in progress. But I was so overwhelmed! So burdened! So heavy! I remember feeling like that A LOT last summer. What a gift to be able to look back and see how God provided for literally amost EVERY single thing on that list!

Our house questions were answered....and we're fine! We made it through the summer. We had money for me to not work for the full 12 weeks of my maternity leave. Everything was ready for Manny's arrival....above and beyond what I expected. We've paid off almost all of our debt. The Lord has provided another wonderful church. He's showing us more and more about living out our calling for today...not always knowing about tomorrow. He's refining us. He's changing us. He has wonderfully provided all things for us.

I didn't expect to run across that tonight. Thank You, Father, for reminding me of how You've cared for me SO, SO MUCH...even in just a year's time. How quickly I forget.

"then take care lest you forget you forget the Lord, who brought you out of the land of Egypt, out of the house of slavery. It is the Lord your God you shall fear. Him you shall serve and by His name you shall swear." --Deut 6:12-13


Kelly said...

Praise the Lord! That's wonderful!